pro re nata

...as the circumstance arises

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there is no fair in life. we do a disservice to children by telling them otherwise.

there is no fair in life. we do a disservice to children by telling them otherwise.

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In todays brilliant idea - I have decided that I no longer want to take Effexor (venlafaxine) every day for the rest of my life. It’s causing me some other health problems and I’m done with it. Is this smart? I have no fucking idea. I tried to get an appointment with my psychopharmacologist to discuss it, but the appointment got cancelled at the last minute and my prescription has run out…so here goes.

So far, my head is buzzing, my fingers feel funny, I keep losing my balance when I stand up, and I just generally feel detached. I am also craving ice cream, but that’s normal. My mood has been stable-ish. 

I should see her early next week, and maybe we dose something in there to level things out while I titrate off of all of these meds. Can meditation keep me level? I hope so.

I’m tired of being on them, I know I’m not ‘normal’ but I hope I can live without feeling like a science experiment. 

Oh yeah - it’s my birthday in a couple of days. Sometimes I am absolutely baffled I have lived this long. 

ADDENDUM: I do still have a prescription for hydroxyzine, temazepam, and Abilify, but I haven’t been taking them either, I guess I could take the hydroxyzine if the withdrawal gets too bad. 

I’m just tired of all of these meds.

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Can we just take a minute to reflect on the genius that is ‘Licensed to Ill’?

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Anonymous asked: Hi Sam, do you ever want to leave this "world". Not die, but drop everything and everyone and start new?

panatmansam:

I did as a younger man. I have not for many many years. I guess I finally realized that what I wanted to escape was me.

that’s it - this is more relevant than almost anything else I’ve seen on Tumblr. I’ve been trying to escape myself all this time. And do you know what I found through meditation? Myself. This post took my breath away. I get it.

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Jesse Parent - “To the Boys Who May One Day Date My Daughter”

This guys is freaking great…although in my case his very last statement isn’t true.